I've seen a few bloggers/youtubers doing the 'what would you tell your younger self, if you could' tag and thought I would add something to the mix. I can't believe how much has changed since then. At 15 you think you know everything there is to know about everything. How wrong was I.
Dear 15 year old Rachael,
Please try harder at school. I know you want to be hanging out with friends, playing sims and wasting your hours on MSN. You won't regret it, but you'll wish you had tried.
Nothing is as bad as you think it is. I know right now it feels like everything is falling apart around you, but it isn't. You're going to be fine. More than fine. Don't take life to seriously, you are only young once. Make the most of it. You won't be 15 forever.
That boy you are so hung up on, who you feel inferior to? DON'T. You think the world begins and ends with him? It doesn't. You're going to let him change you, and you shouldn't. You'll look back on your time with him and parts will be great, parts will be the worst. You should NEVER let a boy define you. You think that the shit he puts you through is worth it, because the good parts are the best? It isn't. You always deserve the best. Every time.
Always be yourself. In a few years you'll look back and not recognize the shy, insecure quiet girl you were. Your friends are the greatest and bring out the best in you, just don't let other people stop that. The girls who thought and act like they are better than you..aren't. In a few years they'll be screaming your name in a club, running over to give you a hug. They never were worth it.
Don't wear your heart on your sleeve and don't trust everyone. Not everyone is nice to everyone. Don't be so trusting, it will only come round to bite you on the ass.
Appreciate the people around you more. They won't always be here. You'll lose someone and it will hurt like hell. You'll have so many regrets. Things you wish you could change.
Your mum is the best. You many not realize it now, you know what's best? Wrong. Your mum is the greatest. Love & value her everyday. No matter how much she moans and nags. You'll grow into a better person because of her.
Your future is going to be great. You'll meet amazing new friends, you'll experience amazing things, you'll travel to places you never thought possible.
You are so so lucky, don't ever forget it. The best is yet to come.
Love, Future Rachael xx